After Thought

I still see you sometimes, whether you're by yourself, or with your new girl.
The thought of talking to you would never cross my mind.
The friends we talked about becoming will never happen, Could never be.
Because the days you held me in your arms, whenever I felt the your lips upon mine,
All of the great moments we shared will never leave my memory.
They're imprinted forever, just like my love.
I hope that you're happier now. That she can give you what I never could.
Fulfill your every need. Not leaving you somewhat empty.
I hope that you're happier now. But that doesn't mean I miss you any less.
I'll always hope for you to come back to me. Although I'll understand if you don't.
I just want you to know, that I do love you.
As much as I have since the beginning.
I hope that you're happier now.
I know that you may not be my boomerang, you may not be my love.
But my heart refuses to accept it.
When it caves, and I know it to be true ... I'll be at a loss for words.

Reality Check!

Sometimes it feels like normal
Like you are mine, and I am yours.
But as each tear falls onto my cheek,
The harsh reality that you will never
Be mine again becomes so much clearer.
I miss you so much it hurts.
It's as if I can't go on without you.
I feel like being just your friend
Is not what we are meant to be doing.
It's those times that I tell myself to breathe.
Because I would rather be your friend,
Then nothing at all...

Passion, Baby

As we go round and round, round
The lights that were once circles
Have now become lines.
I feel your fingers brush against mine
Then I firmly grab a hold.
A feeling of safety has come over me
I take a long calming breath,
Only hoping that it slows the beat
Of my young adolescent heart.
The lines are turning back into circles
And the magical moment is almost over.
But I'm not ready to let go.
If only this feeling could last forever
I wouldn't need anything else.
You can't leave me now.
I've felt your touch and warmth,
It's burned into my hand, my heart.
But, alas, I see the ever-still circles.
My moment of bliss is over..

Your hand slowly slips from mine..

Our eyes cross paths..

Your eyes are bluest when you smile.

Loony Bin

You are my everything.
Constantly in my thoughts,
Forever in my heart.
I feel as if this love
Is a horrible curse.
My heart longs for you
As it has for no other.
Only time will tell
If I will be forever burdened
With this one-sided love.
You are my unrequited dream,
My unfulfilled wish.
The one I can't touch,
Only watch from a distance.
I hope to one day see,
That red door and turtle.

The High Road

We said goodbye in words
That didn't seem too hard.
You went your way
As I had to go mine.
People ask how I'm so strong.
How I can see you
And not break down and cry.
I just hold my head high,
And say because it's not meant to be.
They're not inside my head,
The screaming is mute to them.
They don't know my heart,
The bleeding is unreal to them.
That simple act of goodbye,
I seem to be unable to grasp it.
My rock heart will never
See you as just a friend.

Years After

The days are long and the nights are lonely.
Even though he's beside me, something is still missing.
The thoughts of your touch, they constantly haunt me.
The smell of your cologne, I desperately long to smell.
All I have to do is close my eyes, and I remember every little thing.
But the fact still remains, that you are gone, so far away.
You may only be a phone call, or just a drive away.
But the fact is, your heart is too far from mine.